Struggling to break free
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I am going to try and be tactful, but this is a sensitive subject. I have struggled with internet p*rn for the past 10 years as a Christian. I got saved in 2001 at the age of 20, and had lived a life of debauchery prior to coming to Christ. Many things changed about my life once I got saved - but the temptation of sexual immorality remained. I have since gotten married, had children, and started my own business. I have experienced highs and lows with regard to my ability to resist the sexual temptations of the internet, but have never stayed "sober" for very long. I have tried internet filters, passwords, and even accountability with another man at my church - but still the temptation persists. I ebb and flow between seasons of victory and seasons of defeat and deep despair. I don't want to struggle with this anymore - I want to break free from my addiction. I am afraid to tell my spouse because of how much it will hurt her - I work so much at my business that I don't have time to develop deep, intimate relationships with men who will help keep me accountable. My current internet filter prevents me from accessing other Christian websites with forums for accountability, so I'm turning to the DAB site. I have listened to the DAB for the past three years and I love it. But now I need a place to confess my transgressions, to seek prayer, and to hopefully connect with other men who share this problem and have gained victory over their flesh. Please pray for me if you read this - and if you've read this all, THANK YOU. In Christ, -A
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-A 08/23/2011 12:31 |
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